You are the man
You are my other country
and I find it hard going
You are the prickly pear
You are the sudden violent storm
the torrent to raise the river
to float the wounded doe
Everyone barks and they are all still believing
To tear out your heart would send all your secrets to me,
But I let you down
And swollen and small is where you’ll find me now
“ Nothing in this world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty […] I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.”
I think there’s a common misconception that depression is about something or depression is sadness or some form of negativity. It can represent a sadness or a self-loathing, as the first half of my depression did. It sort of circled back on itself and made me dislike myself more because I was so sad and I didn’t know why and I felt like I needed a reason. … It took me a long time to figure out that something was broken on a fundamental level. There was no reason behind it; it was just the way things were.
Read more interview highlights or an excerpt from her book via the link above.
Image from “Depression Part Two" courtesy of Hyperbole and a Half
Not only is Allie Brosh a smart and funny writer, but she is also a courageous and insightful person. Listen to her moving interview with Terry Gross, especially if you have ever been depressed or know anyone who has.
Thank you, Allie Brosh, for being you.
Check out her blog, Hyperbole and a Half.
Her Reddit AMA is also a great read.
“ To begin a new novel, I look for the biggest problem in my life that I can’t solve or tolerate. Something that drives me nuts, but I can’t fix. Then I find a metaphor that allows me to explore the problem, exaggerating and expanding it beyond reason. I build it up to the worst scenario possible and then find a way to solve it. By the time the book is done, I’ve exhausted all of my emotions around the original problem. Whatever it was, it no longer bothers me. And typically, during the time of writing, the problem has resolved itself. It’s like magic. Try it. It will keep you alive in this world of bullshit.”
“ Whether you fear it or not, disappointment will come. The beauty is that through disappointment you can gain clarity; and with clarity comes conviction and true originality.”
Let’s not forget the film that inspired Terry Gilliam: La Jetée, a visionary 1962 French science fiction featurette by Chris Marker.
Now I tell you openly
You have my heart so don’t hurt me
You’re what I couldn’t find
Totally amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You’re everything to me
de Pablo Neruda
No te amo como si fueras rosa de sal, topacio
o flecha de claveles que propagan el fuego:
te amo como se aman ciertas cosas oscuras,
secretamente, entre la sombra y el alma.
Te amo como la planta que no florece y lleva
dentro de sí, escondida, la luz de aquellas flores,
y gracias a tu amor vive oscuro en mi cuerpo
el apretado aroma que ascendió de la tierra.
Te amo sin saber cómo, ni cuándo, ni de dónde,
te amo directamente sin problemas ni orgullo:
así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera,
sino así de este modo en que no soy ni eres,
tan cerca que tu mano sobre mi pecho es mía,
tan cerca que se cierran tus ojos con mi sueño.